Tuesday, May 15, 2012


it's been a tough spell for martial arts and myself  lately. i feel a bit empty inside, and am trying my best to wait it out. there is no one reason for this feeling that I can put into words ; no specific problem or anything like that. yet my passion is being tested nonetheless.
I feel i am stuck in one place; i feel like the next level is just out of my grasp. all i have been able to do is embrace this feeling and hope it is transformative in a positive way.  after all, as a student of the Tao, I know that it is the hollowness of the vessel that forms its usefulness; it is the holes in the wall--the windows-- that open up the room to light. And "truthful words are not beautiful.(And) beautiful words are not truthful." So I am being honest, and I think that is a good first step in the path of returning.


  1. Having a few weeds to pick makes for a better gardener.

  2. I think this is another important trait of a martial artist. Being able to look at oneself or one's situation and not being afraid to see the truth of it. I see many people who will gladly deny the reality of a situation, and I can catch myself doing the same, rather than admit it.
    I believe it was Churchill once who said "When you are going through hell, keep going." Good motto for a martial artist - Keep Going.

  3. Wishing you the best as you navigate through this time.

    I went through a similar period a little over a year ago. I was practicing/teaching but my heart was not in it. It took me a while to figure it out. For me, it was all about perspective.

  4. Thank you for posting so honestly.